Friday, October 28, 2011 |
I can't for him to be back. :'(
It is so weird, I usually leave him to go back to Singapore, I would cry at the airport and I would be fine once I get on the plane. But this time around he left me to go back. :(
It is so weird to be without him, I was walking around Walmart and I was so lonely, because we would hang around the toy section and play with the toys there.
2 more night and he would be home.
Saturday, October 01, 2011 |
I'm happy and blessed with everything and how things are going right now.
I'm really grateful I got a good job in a good clinic, and everything there is amazing and everyone so supporting and funny. But at the back of my mind, I'm scare, scared to know where this will take me.
I'm not making a lot of money, but I'm comfortable where I am right now. Partially it's because I am staying at home and my Dad is taking care of some of my expenses, but I think it's almost time for me to take over some of those.
At the back of my mind, I am always, always dying to keep studying. Although I hate taking all the exams and writing essays, but I like to keep learning, there is just so many things out there. I am taking another course next month, so that will keep me going for a while. :)
But I question where this will lead me and where I'll be.
After Vacation Friday, September 09, 2011 |
There are couple things I hate to look at and do after a good Vacation.
1. If I come back back during the winter, the sad amount of sunlight I get to see, and the cold I have to endure.
2. Unpacking. UN-FUCKING-PACKING.
3. Laundry
4. My credit card.
5. Back work.
As much as I hate everything on the list, but those list keeps me going. The dislike is only temporary, and I actually like going to work and doing things.
I tend to think more after a vacation, like will I still be able to afford this or that, can I still pay this bill?
And recently, I have been reading up on people who have been successful since 22, and I'm thinking when can I be that successful? All these thoughts swirling around my head.
I still want to go back to school.
I need to stop.
Made of Monday, August 01, 2011 |
A couple things to do before my life starts to follow right into place. *cross my fingers*
I have planned to do a couple things in Vancouver, not to many though.
Looking for restaurants to eat at, I should also stop looking for places to eat for 130 in the morning, because I get hungry. FAIL. lol
Tuesday, July 19, 2011 |
Sometimes growing up means losing friends.
Acceptance is so hard for the parents.
Calgary in a couple hours :) Need a pack for an overnight journey.
not really sure what I was typing. Maybe I was drunk or too tired? ahaha can't tell
But life has been pretty busy, on my day offs I am running errands - getting gifts for birthdays, finishing up my documents for school so that i ensure that i can graduate, weekly allergy injections.
Today, I'm going to some shopping. YAY! :)
Vancouver Monday, July 11, 2011 |
Even though the trip is a month and half away, we're also still looking for plane ticket deals, I am really excited I actually get to plan out where i want to go this time around. :)
So far, I got everything down, but i really hope we don't jam pack everyday with activities, we're so close to Vancouver, and I'm sure one day Chris and I will drive down too.
I really want this to be a chillax vacation, so I am looking forward to it, I'm only a little nervous about the fact we're staying in a Bed and Breakfast, so I am really hoping they are not serial killers or anything, but anyhow my Dad will have the address of where I'll be staying.
Actually that's a lie, we're not really close to Vancouver, we are approximately about a 12 hour away from Vancouver and a 1.5 hour plane ride. Sigh we just have way too much land head. =/
One more ONE MORE JUST ONE MORE. (there is one more on Sunday, I will study that on Thursday) lol
Donate blood, call the clinic to book and appointment, catch up on sleep, games, drama, tv series, read manga. I don't think i will have a life. LOL
and of course go job hunting. I have never been this excited to do nothing and everything. HAHAHAH
i'm such a loser. hehe and book our tickets to VANCOUVER!!!! :)
oh school Monday, June 20, 2011 |
just let me go through this all in one piece.
let me pass this exam. "it's about the numbers" gosh :(
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8 more freaking days.
a couple more coffees, a couple more sleepless nights and I will be a FREE BIRD =D
can't be too happy yet. Got to hang on.
Søvnløs Wednesday, June 08, 2011 |
Sometimes a song in another language that I cannot understand makes more sense than listening to something that I actually understand.
I have been so depressed, physically and emotionally tired. I don't want to go to work or school, all I want to do is sleep.
I would walk around aimlessly forgetting things sometimes and driving home without remember how i actually got home.
It does not help that my ezema shows up when I do not have enough sleep and feeling overwhelmed, and best of all it shows up on my face. Having to deal with that, and going to school and work. Not the funnest thing to do.
Just till the end of this month, I get to just juggle one thing at a time.
Just have to get through 2 practical exams, a business presentation, 1 written provicinal exam and 2 written exams for school.
It will all be over June 26.
Sammen Thursday, June 02, 2011 |
It still stung hurt talking about the past, we have analyzed what went wrong and what we could have done.
But relieving it 2 years later, still made me teared. It still hurt how we tore each other apart, to find ourselves, and in the end we just gave up on each other because we just could not stand each other.
Even though I wish we did not do it the way we did, I am glad we went through so much. I am not sure where we will end up now, but I hope it's for the better.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011 |
A Quiz and Midterm on Thursday.
I cannot wait for it to be over, I am starting to panic a little and stressing out majorly for it.
I am awful, I tend to cry at practical exams especially when I get really stressed out.
I want to go dancing so bad. :(
Need to find new dancing friends, one has a new girlfriend, the other is unreliable because he is busy with work, and their friends are perverts. lol
After all this is OVER i am dragging my girl friends to go dancing. LOL
Wednesday, May 11, 2011 |
I had one of the most amazing experience to date, I had to go to a palliative care facility to give a massage. I got clients who were over 90 years old, and there are the most amazing people I have met. Hardworking when they were young, raised their kids well, optimistic outlook and appreciative of their surrounds.
I would say I am pretty hardworking, and I can appreciate my surrounds. But I am nothing compared to what they have gone through, yes I know they have probably about 70 years of experience ahead of me. But despite their age and disabilities, some of them are amazing, allow me to hear some of their stories and letting me in to their lives.
I love what I am doing, but I don't think i can stay working in a palliative care facility.
Reality is extremely pain, and having that slapping me in the face everyday is too hard.
On another note, I am seriously beginning to toy with the idea of quitting; I lie, I guess reducing even more hours. lol
Losing control the scariest feeling to have.